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Hi people! I've been pretty busy with the baby...she's over 3 months now! She's literally had 2 growth spurts in the past week. Overnight growth spurts. I've heard of that, but I would never have honestly believed it was a thing if I hadn't seen it. Crazy. Not my teeny little baby anymore, and so much more alert and aware of her surroundings. Starting to grab stuff! And thinks she can walk lol. She likes for us to stand her up while she stamps her feet or tries to take steps and wobble herself various directions. I'm definitely bummed that I'm back to work now because I get so much less time with her, but it's awesome to come home to her every day. The husband is definitely adjusting well to being a stay-at-home dad, and he's just so great with her. 
This is kind of a pointless journal I guess. I just wanted to say hi. I miss you all. I've been writing some, but nothing I have felt is good enough to post. Plus! I'm pursuing various avenues for being published at the moment...including self-publishing. We'll see where that goes, I guess. You never know unless you try, right?
HOW ARE ALL OF YOU? I miss you. Talk to me.
Let's be friends.
This is kind of a pointless journal I guess. I just wanted to say hi. I miss you all. I've been writing some, but nothing I have felt is good enough to post. Plus! I'm pursuing various avenues for being published at the moment...including self-publishing. We'll see where that goes, I guess. You never know unless you try, right?
HOW ARE ALL OF YOU? I miss you. Talk to me.
Let's be friends.
Rambling
I’m getting my stimulus check, finally. It took me a while to get my taxes all sorted out, but I got it done. Anxiety makes everything I try to do 12309892x harder, and I’m so sick of it. But anyway. I’m trying to figure out if I want to pursue getting a chapbook published. Who has experience with this that can lend me some advice? I will love you forever. :heart: Now that my state is opening back up, I’m able to do some job searching. My therapist thinks that I should maybe work part time and do disability while I work on getting all this anxiety and PTSD under control. I hate that idea, but maybe. Sorry to be so rambly. Thank you for reading. I really have missed this place.
An update, I suppose.
It’s been a minute. I haven’t had access to dA other than on my phone in quite a long time. I know I’ve been super inactive for quite a while. Life always has ups and downs for everybody, and it’s been pretty down for me still. I guess that makes me want to kind of withdraw. So I’ve been busy doing that. I also haven’t found it very easy to try to interact with this place just using the app on my phone. So who knows. Maybe I’ll be back. Maybe I’ll also drop off again for a while. I’ve really appreciated all the love for what I have submitted here and there, despite my hardly being around. You guys really are the greatest. Tell me the best thing that’s happened to you this month? So far. I know the world is kind of crazy right now...with the whole....you know, pandemic thing. That’s happening. It’s personally helping to amp up some of my favorite PTSD symptoms. So there’s that. Maybe one day soon the world will be back to normal again. That would be fine.
Trying.
It's been a minute.
Life has been a struggle, not going to lie. I think I'm finally starting to resurface and come out on top of all the shit that's been going on. I've been doing a lot of work to be a more stable and functional member of society again. Maybe I'll explain that more at a later time when I have some more distance from recent months. I don't know.
I've submitted here and there and hardly done any responding to all the amazing feedback I've gotten. I'm sorry. I do miss it here. I may be back with more regularity. I'd like to be. I really want to thank all of you from the bottom of my heart for still paying attention to what I d
Mistakes.
Last night after work I sat in my car and cried for a half an hour. Then I went into Target and made a mistake.
Last night I got home and considered making another mistake. I didn't. I sat and cried some more instead.
Tonight I made plans to make a mistake. But I didn't. I turned out the lights instead, and I'm lying awake staring at the ceiling and thinking about things I shouldn't.
God help me.
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Hello! Long time no talk. I'm so glad to hear about your baby girl! You are so amazing, being a mom, a writer, and working too! I know how you feel about not writing much that's worthwhile lately. Life gets busy, and even more so with the holidays coming up. Anyways, just wanted to give you a smile and wave
, and hope things in your life are working out right.
, and hope things in your life are working out right.