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You always wear your heart
on your sleeve, in your eyes,
in your fingers, in your smile,
in your footsteps,

but I cried my heart
into my stomach,
so I had to throw it up,

and you are done searching
the dregs for my good intentions,

and I am done denying
the panic in my veins, I am
going to let them b r e a t h e,

and maybe that will aerate
my arms enough to show you,
me, everyone,

that my heart is on my sleeve
(too).
(too).
I don't know anymore.
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Last night after work I sat in my car and cried for a half an hour. Then I went into Target and made a mistake.

Last night I got home and considered making another mistake. I didn't. I sat and cried some more instead.

Tonight I made plans to make a mistake. But I didn't. I turned out the lights instead, and I'm lying awake staring at the ceiling and thinking about things I shouldn't.

God help me.
Mistakes.
Last night after work I sat in my car and cried for half an hour. Then I went into Target and made a mistake.

Last night I got home and considered making another mistake. I sat and cried some more instead.

Tonight, I made plans to make a mistake. I turned out the lights instead. Now I'm lying awake, staring at the ceiling and thinking about things I shouldn't.

God help me.
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skin
stretched
over
broken cheekbones

eyelids closed against
the airbag, fingers gloved
in cold and leather

lips funnel laughter
from the memories creasing the walls
to your still form
that was never never still because

that is how we remember you
cherish
We went to your wake today.
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i. Did you hear
the sunshine
whisper your name?

ii. I drowned you,
quietly,
in seashells
and nightmares.

iii. One day,
maybe tomorrow
or the next day,
you will smile again.

iv. Your snowflake casket
cracks and melts
the asphalt.

v. Your hair
and eyes
both dress in black
for the occasion.

vi. I lilt you
into phrases
and metaphors
to forget you.
To forget you
I just can't let go of you.
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so speak the love
behind your eyes

and the tragedy
behind your heart

and the anger
behind your nails

and the pain
behind your skin

because life is beautiful
and complicated and cold
and strange and awful

and magnificent and wonderful

and aches to be shared
with (anyone) everyone.
life is beautiful.
Have I lost my edge? Is this even any good? But it means something to me. <3
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Last night after work I sat in my car and cried for a half an hour. Then I went into Target and made a mistake.

Last night I got home and considered making another mistake. I didn't. I sat and cried some more instead.

Tonight I made plans to make a mistake. But I didn't. I turned out the lights instead, and I'm lying awake staring at the ceiling and thinking about things I shouldn't.

God help me.

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hopeburnsblue Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2016  Professional Writer
Hi, Vicky! Thanks for the :+fav: on my "Beauty in Raw Humanity" poem. Sending love! :iconheartredplz:
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BlackBowfin Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you kindly for faving.  :)
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BleedingProphecies Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2016  Student Writer
Thank you for all the reading and commenting and favorites. :) Means a lot. 
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haphazardmelody Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for being so lovely. :)
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hopeburnsblue Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2016  Professional Writer
Hi, Vicky! Happy New Year, and thanks for :+fav:ing "Light Particles Will Find Me." :iconheartredplz:
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haphazardmelody Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Happy New Year to you as well! We still need to sit down and catch up via Skype sometime soon. :heart:
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hopeburnsblue Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2016  Professional Writer
Definitely! :D
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haphazardmelody Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much! I really appreciate it. :)
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somnomollior Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2015   Writer
Thank you for the many faves over the year! Hug 
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